Rain Rain Go Awaaaaay.

It's freezing in my house right now.. Because my dad has something against our heater..

So this weekend was basically pointless. Bio tests and english essays due tomorrow.. But I've done next to nothing on either of them because I am a lazy bum who sleeps too much. It's hard to get into the mood of studying when the study material is so boring. AHHHHH. I keep on getting distracted by cleaning my room and shopping at safeway. This is ridiculous.

I don't like drama. Definetely don't like drama. I think it affects me too much. And then I can't concentrate on shieeeeet. And nothing good ever comes out of it.. Sometimes. But not really. Just disappointment.

Well off to the study hole again. And Michael Bubble of course..

Currently Listening It's Time By Michael Bublé see related

I officially hate being sick. Especially on my birthday.

Ahaha. Yes today is my birthday. I'm fifteeeen. I feel so old. I got balloons and flowers from my dear Lorena. And too many hugs to count. Overall, a good birthday. I don't know what I got from my family yet.. I think it would've been better though.. If I wasn't so tired and I didn't have to blow my nose every other second. Besides that part.. Aha I don't know. Birthdays are birthdays.

Tomorrow will be a year since I went on that tour of AHS when I was an eighth grader. DAAANG. One year. How weird. I remember not being able to picture myself at a high school and shit. And NOW. Well now it's so normal. I was worrying all for nothing. Oh snaaap.

Well I think it's naptime for me. Buh-bye.

Lauren

doo doo doo.

I have yet another set of finals tomorrow. Not really in the mood to sit on my ass for two hours..Again. Anyways, I wish it was summer right about now. Three entire months of nothing. I'm sure I would get bored and then wish it was school.. But school isn't too appealing right now. Sure this week was pretty short and it marks the end of the first semester.. but that only means that there is another one to come. Only half-way there. Yippeee.  I noticed that I'm not really into studying this year.. Ahah my concentration skills have definetely deflated. Bad bad. But I'm guessing it's just a phase.

Wanting something and needing something are two entirely different things. I thought they were the same.. But not quite. I guess you go out in search of someone, something to fill you up inside. It doesn't work that way though. It's like when you go shopping looking for something in particular, you can't find a damn thing. But say you're just browsing you find something 10x better. When you don't try, things just fall into place. I guess that's basically it. Let things happen on their own.. I suppose.

<3 Lauren

Request by..  WACKY Wendy... I have decided to post.

Ahah finally after 18 whole days. It's quite odd actually.. I go on xanga everyday to read my subscriptions but I never post because I never have anything insightful to say. Anyways, today was the first day of finals. Yadidaa.. Decent I guess. I didn't really bother to study. And right now I should actually be studying for bio and english finals tomorrow.. But I say if I don't know this shit by now I'm not going to magically learn it all by tomorrow. Soooo just going to lamely attempt anyways just because I don't have much else to do.

The weather.. Was INSANE today. No kidding. One minute it was raining men. I sweaaar. Well not literally.. But it was raining pretty hard. Then it gets sunny and the rainbow and yadidaa.. On and off. I guess that's how my day was. The weather affects my mood way too much. In the morning it was all nice and I decided it would be a good day.. But then I go and funk up my art final and it starts raining during Spanish and I can't concentrate because I hear this tinkling noise outside.. Baaah afterschool I went on an adventure with Lorena. Ate at my FIRST taco truck ever. Amazing. Ahah took the bus home had a random catch-up session with Tatiananana. Lovely. I return home and try to sleep and when I finally fall asleep I realize I have fucking cheerleading. So I go to cheer practice we really don't get anything done.. And back home. I felt pretty gross today. BAAAH. One of those weird days where you sorta want to spaz out and scream but you don't know why....

So Winterball is on Friday. I guess I'm... excited? Ahah we'll see I suppose. Got my dress.. I THINK. not sure yet. I don't get why people don't want to go.. I mean for freshmen its like the FIRST winter ball. And if this one is shit then don't go ever again.. I say dressing up + dancing + last day of finals.. Yeah you can't go wrong...

Pointless blog.. But it distracted me for a while.

 Yay back to finals...

Oh dang. It's 2:44 on New Year's Eve.

And I'm on my computer. Attempting.. my book report? Wow. Talk about partying.

Ahah I'm actually content just to be here at home. IT'S ALLLLL GOOD.

This year. Ah. I don't even know what to say about it. Just looking back on my old entries I always sum it up as CHANGE. Big change. But this time.. I realized thats how almost every year is.. Ahaha. There were slight changes that effected me this year I guess... But nothing too overly dramatic. My life has always been pretty mellow.You could call it dull.. Butttt I appreciate it for being that way because having too much going on is just.. too stressful.

Anyways. Life is still good. I guess I matured.. I really analyzed my past times. Like when everyone thought I was going through my "bitch phase." I don't think they ever stopped and asked me why I was acting that way or if it was even me who started shit. Because half the time there was a whole other side to the story and it was all miscommunication. Shooot. I suppose I just try not to judge people anymore or take sides till I know first-hand what's going on. It's HARD. It really is. Not to make assumptions or anything. But I know it's fucking just frustrating when people percieve you a way that is false and just judgemental. So I try not to do that to others.Ahah. I know it's only freshman year and all..But I feel pretty good about my beliefs and personality. I mean I doubt I'll be the same person 4 years from now... But it's nice to be content where I am right now.

Oh wow. I suppose that wasn't really "reflecting" on my year in detail. But whatever I can't remember what happened in each month.. Geez I HARDLY EVEN KNOW MY MONTHS. 

 Okay then pirates. Lauren is leaving thissss ship.

alo alo to 2006. ahah this year is about to be the SHIT and and a bag of chips.